Music and My Mood

Music really can change a person's mood. My psychologist prescribes me many medications, but sometimes, listening to the right music lifts my spirits better than any drug made in a laboratory. I confess, I have a new addiction. I go to Starbucks almost everyday, get on my computer and listen to music while I play on my computer. I have tasted almost everything on the menu. Sitting there, with loud music in my ears, just liberates me. I can not say that works every time, but today, that's how I feel. I feel like I don't have a care in the world.

My boyfriend, Scott aka Whiz Kid from the 228, has a great song that talks about music and how it can be a form of therapy. He really has inspired me to listen to music when I am feeling depressed or down. Take a listen, it might inspire you too. God Bless!


Music is my Therapy

Rant about Sprint

I had Metro PCS, I paid $60  for unlimited Data, and 6GB of Hot Spot, with a fairly nice phone the LG Stylo. I always had great service but If I wanted a nicer Phone I would have to cough up a lot of money at front. But, me being a techy and having no patient at all, and wanting better technology, Went to Sprint and got me a Samsung Galaxy Note 5 (fantastic phone), however, when I went to my usual eating spot, the phone didn't had LTE signal, then when I went to Starbucks, I didn't had LTE either GRRRR, then I went home and had between 2-3 bars of LTE.... I was going to settle for that. Hey they gave me a great deal 10GB for $40 but no hot spot. However, me being picky, first thing I did was go to Verizon the next morning. They bought out my contract, They bought my phone, gave me 6GB for $60 (bad deal) plus $20 for line access, insurance and paying on the phone as a lease, (same phone the Note 5) my monthly bill will be around $120, I can use hot spot, and I had 4G LTE and almost full bar everywhere I go. I got a few gadgets, and a cute Kate Spade case, and a the gold version wohoooo >.>  The point of this is, maybe next time, I can save up some money (ya right) and just just buy a nicer phone and stick with the good service and the better deal. But Overall, not complaining, Verizon has really good coverage everywhere, so even if I end up hiking, and lost in the woods I probably still have service. Oh by the way, I had no deposit, which on Verizon this is like a RARE commodity, I felt like a Queen when the rep said no deposit. I was very flabbergasted. LOL 

Samsung Galaxy Note 5 32GB in GOLD

Kate  Spade Black and Gold case

Strange Mood, I love him and he knows

Sometimes you wake up in such a mood, when you feel like nothing can go wrong. Those are the days that you must take advantage of and become productive. People like me, or the people reading my blog don't have have those days often.  I woke up in such a great mood,  with no medication this morning. I intend to make this feeling last, for as long as I can. (of course I still took my meds) let's not get crazy.
Today I feel like there is joy in my heart. It is the second day of the year and I hope I have many days like these. I'm in love with a beautiful guy, that I tell "I love you" everyday, as he responds "I know".

Any fan of Star Wars knows this line, and I have taken it as it came. One day he will he will say, "I love you too", But until that day, I am enjoying that chemistry we have. We can share so much with each other, it is an amazing feeling. When I am feeling down he lifts me up, I can just look at his eyes, and everything feels right. The way he holds me, I feel the love, just  because he can't say it back yet; it doesn't mean he doesn't love me in his own way. 

In the mood discussion, if you can get something done today, that you have been meaning to do for a long time... DO IT! Use the energy you got, this message goes especially to my fellas with #Lupus. We don't get much days like these. So let's this productivity party started. Whether is to wash that pile of clothes or actually start that painting you have been planning for 5 years. 

God Bless you and have a great year! 

Whiz Kid from the 228- What Can We Do

This is my boyfriend's new song "What Can We Do" I hope you will listen to it and enjoy it. #whizkidfromthe228

Music is My Life

by Xenalli "Carmen Scott"
**I'm learning to write songs.**

Music is my life, my medication, it's what keeps me from depression. 
Dancing, spinning, like no one is watching Not looking a dudes, no vodka on my hand. Just having the time I've missed my whole life. 
Music is my life, my medication, it's what keeps me from depression. 
I worked hard all week, I stressed, obsessed, but now, I am not upset. I am not the only one, but this is all about my life.
Music is my life, my medication, it's what keeps me from depression. 
This beat, I am feeling it on my heart, relaxing, forgetting, not having any worries.
Music is my life, my medication, it's what keeps me from depression. 
Ignoring all the fakes thinking about me, I paid all my bills, but I am still sinking in debt. 
is my life, my medication, it's what keeps me from depression. 
Next week, I'm doing it  all over again. I close my eyes and pretend everything is okay. I don't care to express myself.
 Music is my life, my medication, it's what keeps me from depression. 
Even when someone is dead, music will still bring them alive in my heart. I can remember their face and dance for them.
Music is my life, my medication, it's what keeps me from depression. 
I don’t worry about y'all thinking, I'm here and not drinking. I'm enjoying, celebrating, that I got another chance at life today. I'm alive, I am alright.
Music is my life, my medication, it's what keeps me from depression. 

Antisocial Society

We are social animals. Yet some of us, choose to be alone. Why? Have society become so unaccepting that if we think we don't fit the norm, we should be outcast? I think the hell with them, I want to wear kitty ears on my head and go into #starbucks, because I feel good, I WILL. I will sit at starbucks typing from 9am to 12:30pm, because I can. I see cool people, stuck up people, and many friendly faces. Many stories evolving around me, and me creating my own.  Headphones on, listening to music, sitting across my blue eyed angel. Everyone around me, has their own little secrets, their own problems. I am not here to judge you. If you see me, with my headphones on, and you think I am cool, come say hi. Don't be antisocial. Give people compliments if you meant it. Call the barista by their name. Go to Walmart and read their name tag, say hi. Stop being so antisocial. Just live live, you will never know, who you will meet, and what opportunity you might find, by just saying hi.

When do you know is time to settle down?

There comes a time, when you feel like you want stability. You just want to wake up next to someone, and expend time with them. You feel like you can watch them forever. You can sit there, and be in peace, and share your spare time with them, not thinking about anyone else. When that time comes, do you think is time to settle with that person? Sarcasm, jokes, coffee, texting, listening to music, it comes the normal in your life. Your heart pounds at their smile. There is nothing that embarrases you about them. You feel like you can be yourself every day without trying to impress them. You can talk about weird subjects, that you wouldn't think about bringing up to your friends. This person becomes your best friend. You want to be there for them at every moment they need you. They are your priority. Is that when you know its time time to settle down with them? I've met someone like this. I'm 32, I have been married twice. I do not regret anything in my life, not even the bad choices, because they made me appreciate what I have now. Thinking about all my past experiences and partners, I can tell, I am in love. I've loved many people in my life but, I've only been in love with one other man in my life.

When there is nothing you rather do, than to spend time with them, and do the things you love, it is time to settle. I feel so secure, I have no doubts of his loyalty, I can trust him, I believe all his words. I am not embarrassed of my flaws around him. I am not scared to tell the world, this is the man I love. Even if he doesn't feel the same at this very moment about me, that doesn't change my feelings.

He is my role model. He inspires me to be a better person everyday. He is my hero, he has save my soul from drowning in my darkness.

Yes, it is my time, I do not want any other man in my life. I will fight until the end of time for this "happily ever after".