The misery days...

Sometimes, I feel like this sudden urge of just go on a deep sleep and just continue sleeping for a long time. Everything hurts, everything feels dull and painful. Do not want to move, don't want to do anything. Its a feel of darkness, and fear. I don't want to leave my comfort zone, i just want to be left alone.  All the aches and pains seem to consume my body and mind. My eyes get blurry and I cannot see. My abdomen feels empty, and a feel like there is a black hole in my heart. I feel like I want attention but, i don't want to be overwhelm. These are my misery days. I call in from work, and feel like i want to fix my home, but there is no energy. Is this clinical insanity? Is this just me... Is there anyone who feels like this? I don't want to do anything....

The resilient Rose!

So, it's almost winter, and this Lil rose keeps on blooming. It's like a miracle .i call it my lucky rose, because no matter how bad the weather its, she keeps on. We had frost, and some snow. And she still standing. Weird.

Pennsic 40

It poured, it rained and it storm. Ah until we got rid of Glob. I had a blast, until the last day when I got sick. =( . I also got my first pair of leather moccasins. I got addicted to Pennsic Potatoes too. I discovered one more artistic hobbies.... crochet...

Less than 6 days until Pennsic

Right now, I am a mess, My house looks like a cave, I have som much stuff EVERY where. I still got to find things from the attic, but I also have to wait for shipements, i have to work, Some of my projects are STILL not done, OMG.... im cutting it very close. BUT it will be ALL worth it once i get there. Ah, I love the cannon smoke smell, the fresh dew in my tent, and all the people together as if they knew eachother for years. Its trully an amazing experience. I love to sit down unde a tree and just people wacth. All the elabrorat garb that so many people spent time on, they are ALL so beutiful. This will be my second year going, but it feels like I have always belong there. I just feels RIGHT.

Onward to Pennsic 40: 8 days left.

We been staging the things we taking to pennsic,  but the packing will probably last until the morning we leave.  Is getting hectic,  as we get all the final items.  We still need a few things and we also have a couple of projects still hanging.  Will we get everything done on time?  We'll see...

PREPARING FOR PENNSIC 40

This year we are trying Coleman Weather Master in hopes is not too hot or wet.

My Latest painting

Amateur, I know but I enjoy what I do. It does indeed relieves stress! This one is edited from an application on my iPhone 
Basically I am the dolphin and my boyfriend Quintin is the dragon. We live in harmony with each other! 

Ana Eva Medina RIP (April 27, 2011)

 Titi Ana Eva

Titi Ana Eva and my daugther Nana


Ana Eva Medina was my aunt. She raised my older brother as her own son. She took care of my father as her son as well. She always cared for people. She had a great heart. She was energetic and full of life. Then Brain Cancer stoked. Her health declined and she spend most of the time in a bed or in a hospital. I could not say good bye to her. As a matter of fact, I felt like I was to busy and I could not phone her. I was stupid, fail to realize that I didn't have much time to show her how much I appreciate her and loved her. I know She is in a better place now. However, I wish I had one minute that I could of said, "Hey Titi, I LOVE YOU!" I will always have you in my heart. Rest In Peace Titi Ana Eva.

Poor Tulips

Poor lil tulips; the hail/thunder storm yesterday destroyed them leaving one standing. Even after all the tragedy they still bloomed the next morning even the broken ones. I saved them and put them on a cup. They are so beautiful. Things like these is what brings me hope that life always finds a way! 

Xenalli Proudmore

Xenalli Proudmore

Xenalli was born on an Island called Glimmermoon to her mother Jaina Proudmore. Jaina, was very young and in love, but she was deceived, and never her of Xenalli’s father again. A rumor says that dragons in a land far away killed Xenalli’s father.

Glimmermoon is an Island of magical humanoids. Every child was instructed on the arts of Arcane Magic since very young.  The elemental magic was rare, but only special people with great futures achieve the greatness of manipulating Elements.  The people did not know the Sun, although they knew of its existence, therefore they couldn’t study the elements properly and only a few of thus were born with this skill.

Xenalli was a lucky woman. She at a very young age has shown that she was destining to manipulate the art of Elemental magic.  As she got older, she specialized on Ice Magic and Arcane Magic harvesting her power from the moon.   She gains the respect of the High Magus Council, and became a member.

She was always very fearless and adventuring, she has seen every corner of Glimmermoon Island, and she wanted to see more. The citizens were not allowed outside the Island. The island was camouflage by magic to hide it from outsiders trying to steal the moon crystals. The moon crystals made possible the harvesting of the arcane magic of the moon. Everyone carried a moon crystal with them. Without it, the only people able to use magic would be those who know Elemental magic.

Like many other lands in Avalon, the outcast came and begun war with the people. These Dragons were searching for something, but no one really knew what.  They could see right through the magic walls of Glimmermoon, they were vulnerable.

Xenalli fearless as she was, asked the council for permission to go out into the lands of Avalon and seek for help. She knew there was a risk; however, she had to do it. She was young and very skilled. Most of the other members of the High Council were very old and the young ones couldn’t cast elemental magic. They would be vulnerable during day in those vast lands. It was up to Xenalli to seek a mighty Dragon that could help save her people.

Xenalli then embarked on a quest to seek the help of this mighty dragon, armed only with her moon crystal, an elemental stave and only few clothes she left for the lands of Avalon.

To Be Continuing….

When I think of You

“Things slowdown and you feel like that day isn’t going to come... you ask yourself, what is he thinking? Is he thinking about me? Is he making a choice? Am I good enough for this man? Randomness fills my dreamy head. My mind wonders and I think of all my mistakes I’ve done in the past, but this time I speak from the heart. He is the one; he is the one that makes me warm inside. I had opportunities at happiness before and I sure did tear them up. However, we live to learn and we learn by living. This time is my time, my time to shine and listen my heart. You’ll be mine…”

Utopia

We dream of hope, always hoping for understanding. When people can understand each other and feel each others pain, that's when we will have peace. We dream of freedom, and choices, but is that what we need for real peace? Sometimes choices leads to variety....why can we understand that we are ALL the same. Maybe an Utopia where everyone is treated the same and have the same and everyone its assign to do an specific job to contribute to society is not such a bad idea.... One wise ruler of the world that will lead us further in life, where we don't have to pay to research cures, its just DONE.... do you understand where I am coming from?