Inner Peace

One minute can change your whole outlook on life. You can be the nicest person in the world. You can be trying to change the world. But one day, you come to a realization that everything you believe, and strive to achieve is taken for granted by the world. You feel like, "What's the point?", "Why do we wake up every day to go and deal with the same stuff?". Life has been hard enough. At times you struggle just to stay sane. But this one minute in life, you question the meaning of your efforts, the reason you breathe, why are you bothering to doing all this? Why help people that don't want to be helped.

Today I realized, that maybe, we need to live for ourselves. Do what make us happy regardless if anyone else is interested or not. For example, I like to draw. However, if people don't show interest in my art, maybe no one will buy it. I will waste time and effort promoting and showing the world what I like. But, after months there might be a like or two on my page. One person in 5 years might comment. I reached one person that might get inspired to do what they love to do. Regardless of what it costs, or if it influences multitudes, I'm doing this for myself because I like to do it. It's fun to me. It's not a job, it's a hobby. It's a dream. It's a passion. If someone cares, good, if no one besides myself does, that's okay too.

When I was a kid, all I did was work with different arts and teach the neighborhood kids. I used to have so much fun. I miss those days. I dreamed about being a nurse and helping people.

Right now I cannot be a nurse due to my disability. I tried being an EMT for a while. I saw how most of the world just wanted handouts, and the easy way out. I got discouraged. After so many trials and tribulations, I came to a realization today. I'm working for me, my life, and the one I want to spend it with. I'm investing in being happy and making the best of whatever I have left. I'm blogging because I love to write. I'm painting and drawing because I love art. I'm posting it on my Website because I'm proud of my work. If someone comments, writes me, or buys anything, I'll be grateful. However, I'm not expecting anything more than just happiness from doing what I love to do.